Surrender… my little and all.

I still feel the thunder
The thump of your being on mine,
I still feel the madness
That your body seemingly felt for mine.
I still feel the crushing
That made me crumble under you,
I still feel the power
That made me surrender to you.

I still feel the strength
That made me allow for weakness in this duel.
I still feel the magic
That made me want to believe this might just be real.

I still feel truth in that moment
That must just have been an illusion to you.
I still feel the affection you gave me
That may just have been affection you needed for you.

I still feel the heart
That I felt beating against mine.
I still feel the breath
That made mine become a sigh.

I feel you on me
Like I seemingly wished I wouldn’t feel,
I feel you on me
Like I underneath wished I could again feel.

I feel you on me
As constant as every breath,
I feel you on me
Even as it seems hard to take a breath.

I feel you on me
Even as the tide drowns me,
I feel you on me
Even as I believe the ocean’s too far out to touch.

I feel you on me
Even as the sky falls on me,
I feel you on me
Even as the sky seems a thousand miles away to clutch.

I feel you on me
Even as I promise myself to never let go,
I feel you on me
Even when you wish it wouldn’t be,
I feel you on me
Even though I wish I wouldn’t feel,
I feel you on me
Even if you think it’s all just a dream.

I feel how I wish to not feel
And so I wish to not feel for you.
I feel how you wish to be an island
And so I wish to not be an island to you.

I feel myself wishing to run away
Even as I wish to face this all,
I feel myself feeling
Although I promised myself to not again at all.

I feel myself wanting to lose myself
As I wish to find you.
I feel myself wanting…
And I don’t know when that wish became a want.

I do feel that heart beat against me
That made my heart skip a beat tonight.
You do feel my heart beat to yours
As our hearts did beat in rhythm tonight.

I feel the thunder of your breath
I feel the tempest of your heart
I feel the flame of your soul
I surrender to your being… my little and all.

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